It’ll get worse before it gets better, right?
Supposedly that’s how it’s supposed to go, and I’m dreading it!
Alex is going through a lot of things overseas right now, and unfortunately it’s causing a lot of bickering :( We haven’t talked much this week just because we know that when we do, we’re going to argue over random shXT! Normally we’re not like this, and I know things will blow over. I’m just ready for him to be home so everything can be normal. A lot of bullshXT is going on over there, and it is seriously stressing him out, along with saving for a car, saving for a wedding, and saving for a move to HAWAII….none of that is “low cost” shXT ya know…..we’re just really on edge, I’m ready to be over all this.
Hope my hunny gets a break…..”Something’s gotta give”
And the beat goes on…..
I’m feeling a little overwhelmed lately. Wedding plans are slowly coming together, but I STILL can’t find a wedding venue :( And Alex continues to make decisions without discussing them with me, which on one hand is understandable, but on the other it just confuses the hell out of me. We talk about doing one thing, then he chooses to do something else that just kinda leaves me high and dry trying to figure out what to do next.
Rylan started daycare today. It was the hardest thing I’ve had to do in a long time. Part of me felt horrible for leaving him when he was clearly upset about being in a new place with new people. Part of me felt guilty for taking him from being around family into a room full of strangers. And I felt terrible because the realization hit me that my little baby is growing up, he was ok without me for almost a whole day. Without me, his Oma, his Granma, his Aunt Lacey…..it just felt, heartbreaking :(
Just a few things getting to me the past few days, needed to get it out so I can move forward!
Stab me in the eye! I need drugs!!!
Ok….so actually let’s NOT stab me in the eye, that wouldn’t be very comfortable, and it would make life somewhat difficult only being able to see out of one eye.
And….I don’t need drugs. Just a good sleep schedule, I haven’t worked since April and since then I’m up all night and sleep all day (not really all day, but at least until 11) and now that I’m starting a job tomorrow I just can’t sleep….DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH TOMORROW WILL SUCK!?!?!?
Oh well….I can’t even concentrate long enough to make this make sense…so wish me luck tomorrow, and I’m going to attempt to get some sleeeeeeeeep!
I hate bitches…..